An Original: Where is He

Where is He??

I don't know where you are

Don't know where you reside

All I know is you're not with me

I'm blind unable to see into your eyes

My heart aches and breaks for you

Wanting you near

Needing your calm to cure my fears

Searching....

Searching in this cold world for you

Alone....

Cold......

Without You.....

Searching and Looking for your warmth

Your lips aren't pressed against mine

You're not laying in my arms after a long day

I know you're out there

Just not with me

What lessons must I learn to be worthy of your love

Why must we be apart when we fit one another like a glove

Why can't we just start.....Living......Together

Through eternity

When will I become us

When will I have a partner in this game called life

We can conquer each level together

Riding around destroying the obstacles easily

Because we are always looking out for one another

I want to make memories

Want to repel those entities who are really our enemies

Want someone to take on the world with

Someone who will have my back

Someone who loves me terribly and unconditionally

Oh where are you and where am I

I don't want to wait until we reach the sky

I want to feel your flesh here on earth

Your breath on the back of my neck when you kiss it and ask, "Baby how was your day."

I just hope you need me as much as I do you

Just reveal yourself to me and I'll always be true



I'm Back Snitches!!!!!!

Well I'm Back!!!!!!

OMG It's been such a long time fam!!!!! I have missed all of you and I am happy to report that I am going to start blogging again.

I was in the world of retail so that didn't really allow me to blog as much as I would have liked but now I have the itch again.

So many things to talk about so many things that has happened really so sit back and relax on this blogging adventure

Sheding the Past..............Last Post of 2014!!!!!!

It is interesting when you grow up because you are constantly changing. I am changing and evolving everyday and it's a good thing in my opinion. I mean it's a good thing in many ways but sometimes people can mistake growth for change and I've never seemed to understand this concept. Just because I may do something a little differently then I used to doesn't mean I am changing. I am growing!!!!!! I mean like is all about change and growth anyway so why is there this negative connotation towards these concepts?????

It is important for all of us to move on from certain situations that could have been causing us harm. Getting rid of that person or people that bring you down and realizing who is actually there for you in the end. Too much of anything is never a good thing. So I will take tonight to reflect on the things this year that has affected me in a negative way and try to change them.

I suggest you do the same :-)

Sheding the past is not necessarily a bad thing it could actually do someone a world of good.

Listening to- Girl's Day- Femal President

Check them out if you're in to K-POP!!!!!!

Progression.......Moving Forward and NOT looking back

 

 

You never know how inspiration can come from an unlikely place. Some time ago I was in a cab talking to the driver and he expressed that in America you can truly work for what you want vs his country where you could not. He expressed how in his country he was not able to be able to afford to live in his country becasue of the crime rate and things of that nature. He then went on to express how he was able to work here and progress. He came here with just the clothes on his back and nothing else and now he had him own apartment and car. He was working two jobs and said he didn't have a problem with it because of the progress he was making.

That truly inspired me to start grinding the way that I currently am so I can put myself in a position to succeed as well. I realized I was just existing instead of actually living life and more importantly wasting a lot of time doing things that had nothing to do with progression at all. This conversation with the driver made me understand that I need to do more. In America we have so many luxuries that we feel they are just supposed to be here. They aren't!!!!! If you can do more why aren't you........2015 The year of progression.

 

 

Listening to- 2NE1- Clap Your Hands

 

 

 

The second best girl group behind Girls' Generation (In my opinion) 



K-POP MANIA!!!!!!!!!

Ok....I have been really exploring my inner K-POP side as of late!!!!! I was always hip to the legendary Girl's Generation who are the best selling female group in the world but now I have broadened my horizons a little and found new acts that I like a lot. Here is one of my best pics from the K-POP genre.

Shinee

 

I like this group a lot!!! I was actually listening to them this morning. They are starting to be my favorite male group because of their harmonies and upbeat songs.

Here is some of their better ones.

Lucifier

 Aye Yo

These are two of my favs!!!!!! They remind me of some of the R&B groups that I like to listen to sometime.

 

 

This is just one of the groups I am currently listening to on a daily basis. I will be showing you more groups and solo artists as I find them.

 

Thanks

A NEW CHAPTER!!!!!!

I recently got a new job and I am so very happy. Interestingly enough it's the least amount of work I've ever done and I am making the most I have ever made. Which brings me to what I wanted to talk about today. Why is it in America the jobs with the least amount of labor tend to make the most money??? Does this seem to make any sense to you because it makes none to me. I have slaved literally for 5 years working my jobs, which have been retail, and now I have my first desk job FINALLY!!!!! Guess what. I will not take it for granted at all and I will NOT forget where I came from!!!!

I think that this has been a long time coming for me and I am excited for the opportunity. The interesting thing is that it seems we can take these things for granted as if they are guaranteed. It's one of the old sayings that people don't know how good they have it until it's gone. While this is truly unfortunate it's completely true. These people at this job have it so good and I feel they might be taking it for granted. I know people who would kill for a job like this. To be able to sit down and not be ran through the dirt all day long and get paid a decent salary as well.




Speaking of not knowing what you have until it's gone. My old job now wants me extremely badly. It's interesting that you work at a place and give it your all only to have them take you for granted. I never feel like they treated me badly at all but since I have left I see they never fully realize the delicious meal I brought to the companies table. I realize this more and more everyday because I still work there on a part-time basis. Suddenly all of these opportunities that were invisible before are present in plain view. I even had the GM sit me down in his office and talk to me about how I'm an asset to the team. I don't blame him because he is knew and was just getting to know my work. But the other managers are sure missing me because I took a lot of weight off of theie shoulders as a supervisor.

It feels good to know that they finally see all that you did, no matter if it may be too late.

Listening to-Shinee- Aye Yo

If you don't know who they are find out!!!!!!

At A Crossroads!!!!

Sometimes I wonder why things like this keep happening to me?? I mean it seems I have met a perfect guy. He's kind, patient, soothing and really loves me. He has been a perfect gentleman the entire time we have dated. Claiming he wanted to wait to have sex in order to truly get to know me. That notion only made my heart go beat beat and made my love for him stronger.

Now we have gotten into the bedroom and things have taken a turn for the worst. I mean we have tried a few times now and the pieces of the sexual puzzle seem disjointed. I am being as supportive as I can but damn. I just want to get done proper out and inside the bedroom by the same man.

Why does that seem like it is so hard to find in this life?!?!?!?! Every guy that I've been with that is good at sex is terrible at being in a loving relationship.  On the other side of the coin those who seem to have the relationship piece down dont know how to have great sex. Ugh!!!!!!!! Why is it so hard to find both at the same time???

A part of me thinks I'm personally being extremely shallow. Another feels I am perfectly valid in these frustrations I am currently experiencing.  I honestly don't know what to do at this point. I am at a crossroads wondering which way to wander.

Maybe in life we have to choose and not necessarily have it all.

Now Listening to- Girls' Generation: Animal