Defected!!!!!

I AM DEFECTED!!!!!!!!!!!!
Something has to be wrong with me
I am not taking you seriously
I don’t wake up with the urge to call you at all
Don’t want to break your heart trying not to let it fall
The urge to be with you in your presence
You fill so much for me
But I Feel empty
This nothingness disturbs me to the core
I want to feel like you do
But I am torn inside
Numb
Still Dealing with the side effects of other failures
I am presently not operational
Like a toy overused
Why can’t I feel this love that is so evident in my life?
I am missing out on this joyous experience
I am defected
Broken, Erased, Reset
Trying to restart and become functional once again
So I can play my part
In this love story I am living