A Life of Labels

I am doing a lot of self reflection these days. I don't know, I am just all out of sorts because of personal things I am going through but this is neither here nor there. I was wondering certain things about myself.

Like:

Why do I feel ashamed of being gay sometimes?
Why am I sooo afraid to stare at men when I am in public.
Why am I afraid when men look at me?
Who am I as a gay individual within this society?
Why do I try to put labels on everything?

See one of my biggest problems is I always put labels on everything in this life. I think I do this because it is what is fed to us in this society because if we really think about it, we all put labels on things. But I struggle especially because I have the feeling that I need to classify myself within this crazy world of labels. So I find myself always trying to figure myself out instead of just living life. I do not have a set style or look I can claim nor do I want one. I like being the way I am on any given day. Some days I feel chill others I feel really masculine and others feminine. So this problem stems from my every-changing personality, because my personality is so layered labeling myself is so complicated

I don't know you guys, I have come to the conclusion that I need to just live life rather than labeling it. So this is what I will do in the future....