OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! CICI

Now this is the Ciara I know and Love!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Interchangeably Interchangeable

Last night I went over this guys house and before anything happened I realized something. Something I did not want to admit to myself for the longest time but now I know is true. We are all interchangeably interchangeable in this life. Meaning when one thing doesn't work we just go to the next. I say this because before we messed around, he told me all of these stories about how he did it to this and that guy almost as if I should have been impressed or worse grateful that he was going to do it to me now.


I mean we are all bodies on this earth that go from host to host taking a chance on them, hoping they will respect us. Hoping they will love us and all. I mean this is just a mess because I used to have a problem with people that got around too much but I am starting to realize that everyone does. I mean weather you're a top or bottom the shit is all the same. I had a discussion with my EX today and he told me he had sex with 24 people in the span of a couple of days. I guess he was really feeling himself in this time period. Well, anyway back to last night. As I was being told the tale of all of these boys I started to wonder, "If I let this nigga hit will I be just another story to put in his sexual portfolio of clients?"

I mean this really made me feel uncomfortable in a way. I grew up with this notion that you find the one that makes you happy and they stay with you and love you until the end. I am trying to figure out if I really was this young and naive in this assumption or has the world just become corrupted? With sex, lies, drugs, and greed to have a list of bodies. I mean I have no idea at this point???? I was also trying to figure out if this dude was just really being honest with me and all but I guess only time will tell!!!


AND TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION YES!!!!! WE HAD SEX AND IT WAS WORTH IT :)

Listening to: Alicia Keys- Doesn't mean anything From the album : The Element of Freedom

I Live For This!!!!!!!!!

OMG I was surfing around the Tube of You and I spotted this!!!! I just knew i had to put it on my blog the second I saw it!!!!

It's the group Girlicious shooting their new music video

Is this REALLY Nicki Minaj!!!!!!!

Ok wow!!!!! This is a clip I saw a while ago that I am very surprised hasn't surfaced since she is getting up there but you be the judge!!!!

Switching the Routine

You know the extremely interesting thing about working as a temp or for a temporary agency is the connections you form that are bound to be broken once an assignment is over. I have been working this job for about four months now and it has been great!!!! Now I am fortunately one of the lucky ones that gets to stay!!! Yay!!!! So I will most likely have a job through the summer!!!! This feels so so so exhilarating because I really want and need to grow as an individual this summer. I mean it is finally time for me to put my tennis racquets down at least for a day or two and live this thing called life!!! I don't want my life to be consumed by any one thing this summer as it has been in the past. I would like to get up and go to school and work and really live (and also get my drivers license HELLO!!!!!). I don't think some of my friends understand me when I say things like this because they have already been doing it for so long.

You have to understand what I have done with my life to understand my need to breakaway from this constant routine. Don't get me wrong I enjoy routines immensely and love to find new ways to do the same things but it is time for a chance within my personal life. Every summer I am consumed with playing tennis and working at a tennis shop!!! You see what I am mean I have no outlet!!!! No time to just LIVE that will all change this summer!!!!

CHRISTINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm READY to get BIONIC ARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!