At A Crossroads!!!!

Sometimes I wonder why things like this keep happening to me?? I mean it seems I have met a perfect guy. He's kind, patient, soothing and really loves me. He has been a perfect gentleman the entire time we have dated. Claiming he wanted to wait to have sex in order to truly get to know me. That notion only made my heart go beat beat and made my love for him stronger.

Now we have gotten into the bedroom and things have taken a turn for the worst. I mean we have tried a few times now and the pieces of the sexual puzzle seem disjointed. I am being as supportive as I can but damn. I just want to get done proper out and inside the bedroom by the same man.

Why does that seem like it is so hard to find in this life?!?!?!?! Every guy that I've been with that is good at sex is terrible at being in a loving relationship.  On the other side of the coin those who seem to have the relationship piece down dont know how to have great sex. Ugh!!!!!!!! Why is it so hard to find both at the same time???

A part of me thinks I'm personally being extremely shallow. Another feels I am perfectly valid in these frustrations I am currently experiencing.  I honestly don't know what to do at this point. I am at a crossroads wondering which way to wander.

Maybe in life we have to choose and not necessarily have it all.

Now Listening to- Girls' Generation: Animal

I will not be defeated!!!!!

In life there seems to be things that are constantly coming up to distract you. Whether these things are good or bad, there always seems to be something falling from the sky to keep you occupied.  I mean there's bills, loved one's, personal issues, work. It seems the responsibilities of life are endless.

These various obstacles have the ability to get someone down. So much so they feel it impossible to go on. They may feel that fighting is futile and they want to take the easy way out and give up all together. DO NOT give up!!!!! You cannot be defeated that easily in this life because it will chew you up and spit you out if you let it.

Don't allow the minor set backs of life to get you down. Instead, just prioritize the things you want to accomplish and handle them accordingly. Many people underestimate the strength a human can endure and don't give themselves enough credit for being strong. You can do it!!! You are strong enough and can weather the storm of life if you truly believe you can. It's not about how many storms you've been in, but how you handle them.

Listening to- Christina Aquilera- We Remain

It's Just These Rainy Days

Rain has always been something near and dear to my heart. When I was younger I actually would pray it would rain so I could use my umbrella because I loved it so much. Ahhhh to be a kid again. Those were the times where the rain was a comfort. When you didn't have a care in the world so you could gingerly curl back into your sheets and fall back to sleep to the sounds of the soothing liquid.

Now as an adult, the rain can mean many things. It can be a blessing or an inconvenience. I personally love the company of my boo (wherever he is) when there is a downpour. It just seems to make things very romantic for some reason. But on days like today where it was so hard to get out of bed and go to work in the first place; the rain is not my friend.

I am officially late for work now because I wanted those few extra minutes of rest. I wanted to go back to being that kid that could sleep the day away without a care. I realize that is no longer my reality unfortunately, but it sure sounds nice. Well!!! I will get there when I get there. I'm already late. I might as well enjoy the train ride for what it's worth and continue to gaze at the rain stream down my window.

Listening to- Avril- Rock N Roll

Your Bosses Boss

It has got to be one of the most frustrating things in life to work for a boss that youre smarter than. Smarter than the person placed to consistently and constantly judge the caliber of your work. How can they judge when they have no clue what they are doing and don't have any clue of your daily responsibilities? It is almost as if companies put these random people in these high positions and for what???

Y'all know what I'm talking about????

Anyway, to get through a common day with them just breathe, count to ten, and know that tomorrow is coming. The good thing about most bosses that know you're smarter than them is they usually know it as well. They tend to trust you more and leave you alone when it comes to your job; mainly because they know you know it and they have not a clue of how to do what you do.

No it's not fair at all but such is life. We just have to get through the days and hope all the applications you have been putting out into the job market will eventually pay off.

Now Listening to- Ariana Grande- Honeymoon Avenue

Wanting More!!!!!!

Have you just ever wanted more and try to figure out how to get it??? I mean it's truly tough. More respect, more power, more love or money. I am working and loving it everyday but I feel this desire to do better. To do more. Not that I'm doing bad at all but I just feel this emotion telling me that I'm not where I would like to be in life.

How do I get rid of this sound or at least quiet it a little? Maybe there isn't a way. Maybe I am doomed to hear this voice inside my head for eternity. Always wondering what could have been. Looking back at the things I could have done. Unless I fix the things that are bothering or distracting me at this moment in my existence. I know I can do this!!! Most people don't realize the power of the human mind. Once it's set it's set and you can do anything you want.

Keep your head up. If you don't like the way life is unfolding, change the things you are doing in order to get the wrinkles out!

Listening to Janelle Monae- Can't Live Without Your Love